Frozen Heart

 So, it's almost four years being single. Well, I met some people along the way, but somehow, none of them lingers. Here I am, alone. To be honest I'm still trying to find the answer to that and nothing seems come to my mind.

Is it because I'm ugly?

Am I that undesirable?

Is this my karma for cheating on my ex?

Well, as I said, I have no idea what it is.

The thing is, yes I do havc feelings to some of the people I met, but somehow the ones I have feelings with, doesn't. And it keeps happening until now. It took a toll on my heart. I don't think I'm able to do this.

I know there are lots of things other than love in this life. But, you know what? Those other things are already in motion. And the only thing that not going anywhere is my love life. Also I have the tendency to fix anything that goes wrong in my life. And the only thing that's broken is my love life.

Don't get me wrong, I'm pretty good in bed. But... somehow... my love life is not the same.

It's hard for me to maintain a relationship with anyone.

Am I that stupid?

God, help me.