Just Being By Myself

 So recently I decided to have my own place, so I got out from my parent's house and live in a 3x4 place with en suite bathroom, AC, Wi-Fi, and all woods construction. All alone, just myself, day by day. People shocked by my decision and question it so much. But somehow my heart so sure about this decision. I never felt this sure about anything. No, I'm not running away from anything, I just need my space. My space to think, to be productive, to grow, to be a responsible adult, to do anything that I think it's a good thing without being judged.

Doesn't mean I no longer make mistakes, though. I do still make mistakes, lots of it. But I think the more mistakes I make, the more I know how to not do that again. So now, I'm taking control of my own life, little by little, getting better each day. Yes, it hard. I have this personal issue of compulsiveness. I often not to think things through. Even though there's a bright side to it, unfortunately, many times I fell to the not-so-bright side.

But then again, this is my decision. I don't regret it, well at least for now. But I hope I won't regret it, ever. Because I enjoy my decision and I'm living it. Growing up is sucks, but being a grown up has its perks. So, fret not, because you will enjoy the perks, IF you work smart and earned it!

Also, since I live by myself, I think my love life is not significantly changing. Which is okay, because now I'm trying to be a content creator while having a full time job. Yes, it would be hard, but at least I can be creative again. It's been a long time since my creative side is hidden. So, yeah, I need to do this. I want to do this. Because in my projection is that when I'm 50, I will still be so cheerful as I am now. And I think it's a great projection. I hope I will be still as cheerful and easy going as I am now in the future.